28th June 2011
As I was falling asleep last night I was thinking about how people (friends, family, colleagues, peers) perceive certain people as either quiet or loud. I consider myself a quiet person but I know a few people will argue against that. In most social situations I am a quiet person, all through school and even now, people would, I wouldn’t say, “make fun of” but yea make fun of is the only way to put it. Why is it so wrong that someone is quiet? I think I get the whole quiet thing a lot at soccer, but here’s the thing, why talk when you don’t have anything to say? Which leads to the whole point of, oh they are so quiet therefore they must be boring. Which also leads to the whole, they aren’t funny or they don’t have a sense of humor. Example, on the weekend a girl in my team made a funny remark before our game, and everyone made such a big deal because they’ve never heard her make a joke before, and saying she’s actually funny, in which her close friend who just joined our team backed up saying she is actually really funny.
Point being, just because someone doesn’t crack jokes like the class clown 24/7 doesn’t mean they aren’t funny. Case in point, if you asked anyone on my soccer team if I’m funny they would say no. However, if you asked say Sydney, I’m pretty sure she would say I’m hilarious. Which leads to the fact that, I am usually quiet around certain people because I’m not comfortable. One of many reasons, other include, I’m nervous, I don’t have anything to say, I’m upset, I’m tired, or I’m just plain being quiet, because I can. Now saying that I’m not comfortable around people doesn’t mean I’m not close friends with them or don’t trust them because I do. I still get uncomfortable around some of my closest friends, but I think that’s just me, because I’m a nervous person by nature, I get nervous at pretty much everything, I don’t know why, I just do, it’s always been that way, but I can say as I’ve gotten older, I’ve gotten more confident, but I think that’s just part of growing up.
Ironically, Adam Young posted a blog on twitter this morning about Introverts. Now, I would say I’m an Introvert but I don’t think I am entirely, and I think it’s very hard to characterize someone as either an Introvert or Extrovert because I think most people are a combination of both.
Point 1: “Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk. This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.” Sometimes, I hate small talk, because a) it’s boring, b) you have something more important to talk about, c) it’s awkward because of b). I don’t know if I agree with this myth because I do like to talk, but I am quiet so.
Point 2: “Myth #2 – Introverts are shy. Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.” I am shy. I get socially awkward and nervous.
Point 3: “Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people. On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.” I love people, and would do anything for my friends.
Point 4: “Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone. Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.” I hate being alone. But I do think a lot, I over think all the time and I do do a lot of thinking even when I am with someone, it doesn’t mean I’m ignoring you.
6th April 2011
You, have pointed out my flaws again as if I don’t already see them.
I never know how to start a blog cause it’s generally quite random, pretty much just a bunch of my general ramblings that only a handful of people read. Which is funny cause I kinda have a process of how I write them too haha, I usually write down a bunch of ideas/ topics (I wrote down 19 ideas/ topics for this blog) like just one word or one sentence then expand each of them, and there you go haha, fun facts for you. You’re bored already right?
So one of my pet hates is people who don’t keep promises, if you can’t keep it, don’t make it in the first place, it’s a simple thing. Friends who make promises and keep them are one of my favourite things in the world. I know sometimes you can’t help it and that’s ok. But in general it’s one of my favourite qualities in a person, my best friends keep promises and I trust them so much because of that, I love that.
My friends have been amazing lately, it’s the tiny little things that are amazing. Such as, coming on early to talk because you cant later, searching for hours for the best concert tickets, staying up late to watch a new “tradition”, watching tv shows together even a world away, Skyping, leaving a super amount of messages while I’m at soccer, texting me just to see how my day was, calming me down when I was really upset, going along with my craziness while we tried to decide something important, keeping me awake while we drove home, dirty talk, finding relevant music, and long phone calls. You know who you are.
Something that has been bugging me lately is when people say, “I didn’t mean anything I said” well obviously you did, cause if you didn’t you wouldn’t have thought that and you wouldn’t have said that at all. If you say something, you obviously mean a little bit of it whether you like it or not. Don’t take things back, they are already said and done. Damage done.
I’ve seen a lot of bitchy girls around lately, in public and on the internet. I don’t like it, people who are rude or have no respect for anyone, it’s just not nice. Act responsibly and with respect to everyone you meet, things you say and do can make someone feel so low, and you may not even know it. Just be nice to everyone, it’s not that hard, and generally makes you feel pretty good.
So I’ve been back at uni for 6 weeks now, I thought it would be hard adjusting back into studying, class, homework and assignments again after a year off, but it’s been pretty good so far. I adjusted better than I thought I would. I’ve handed in one major piece of assignment and I’m scared as shit to get my mark back in a couple weeks, I really have no idea how well I did or not. Visual Communication is by far the best subject, because it’s exactly the sort of thing I want to do once I finish uni, so I’m really enjoying it even though some of it’s hard. In another subject we have to make a five page website for a brownie recipe which is kinda funny but also slightly annoying, there is only so much you can write about brownies haha. Did come in handy this afternoon though, coded April’s Tumblr, which was a win haha.
So I have a couple of “uni friends” I use the air-quotes because it’s more like just people who you sit next to in certain lectures or tutorials and engage in minimal conversation haha, it kinda cracks me up cause everyone is still so socially awkward, or maybe it’s just me. Yeah probably just me.
I haven’t talked to you properly in nearly 6 weeks. I needed you and you weren’t there for me again. I don’t know what to think anymore. I needed my big sister to talk to.
Caylee, I’m just going to address this directly to you so you know. I think we asked each other the do you still want to be friends question at least half a dozen times, and I think each time we answered that we weren’t entirely sure it was right. But in the end just letting it go was the best thing, and that was a hard thing for me to do. Talking to you that day for the longest time in 6 months felt so much better. And Skyping for the first time in even longer was crazy and weird. “Everyday that we had all the good all the bad.”
My dad has been away a lot lately, four of the last six weeks, also part of this week, and next week. My dad has always gone away a lot throughout my life, but not like this in a while. I can’t lie and say it’s not bugging me because it is. When he’s not away he’s moody and snapping at everyone. I’m so over it at this point. I appreciate how hard my parents work but sometimes it’s just too much to deal with, particularly when my dad and I can’t hold a proper conversation anymore.
Taylor winning Entertainer of the Year the other day was amazing. Not simply because she deserves it because she no doubt does but because of the fans. I love award show days because the outpouring of love and appreciation is so mind blowing. When all the fans come together it’s something special. I think that’s what we see come back at us when she’s on stage.
I’m so excited to see Keith Urban and Lady Antebellum next weekend, I don’t even know what else to say but I’m excited haha. Also going to Miley in June, I’m not a huge Miley fan, I love some of her music, but I am incredibly excited I think just because it’s “Miley Cyrus” and that will be an experience in itself. Third and forth concerts of my life *thumbs up*.
Sydney, I love you, everything we’ve talked about lately, just yea I think you know, I’ll keep trying to help you work everything out as long as you need me to.
I’m really excited to see Never Say Never on Friday, and yes April and Sydney I know you have disgusted faces reading that :p.
It’s one of my best friends birthday this month :p I dunno their name, I think it’s something to do with this month… anyways… I hope you have an amazing day, I’m sure you will, I’ve heard some of the presents people are sending you and you will flip :) I wish I could be there.
Well this has been quite lengthy, so I will wrap it up with a few relevant lyrics…
“So, I won’t let you close enough to hurt me, no
I won’t rescue you, you to just desert me”
“Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting”
“Now I’m standing alone in a crowded room and we’re not speaking,
And I’m dying to know is it killing you like it’s killing me, yeah.”
“And big girls don’t cry”
“Cause what you don’t understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya”
“And if an ocean lies between us I’ll send a message across the sea”
9th - 17th December 2010
It was the end of a decade but the start of an age
If you asked me what this year was going to be like, it would have been something like this, university studying sports science, playing division one soccer, and making new uni friends. Good thing that didn’t go to plan, because this was much better…
Sometimes the planned thing, the thing everyone is doing, following the crowd, is not right for you. It takes a lot to realise that. The plan of continuing studying which I thought was definitely the right thing to do was definitely wrong. If your dreading something, don’t want to go to something, if you have a choice not to do it, don’t do it, it’s obviously not right for you.
Reading through letters friends sent me this year, is quite strange, because you can actually see change and how people have grown. Some things change, some people change, some remain the same. Sometimes that’s the best of all, the friend that doesn’t change. I love that and I love that friend.
The 4th of February, one of the best days this year, one of the best days of my life, not only did I get to meet my idol or role model, or how ever you want to put it, that day started everything. Somehow in the blink of an eye your life can change and you can’t even see it coming. That was that day. I realised I didn’t want to keep doing what I was doing. It was effectively the day I made lifelong friends. It was just everything.
You just know when you’ve met a group of people who have changed your life. This year I had the amazing luck of making friends with the most amazing group of people, American and Australian. True friends teach you things you didn’t know about yourself. I’ve certainly learnt from you. That helping someone helps you too. That some people just want something from you and nothing else. That feeling will pass eventually. That I’ll fight pretty damn hard for you. That I won’t give up on you. That some people are loud to cover up that they are upset, or they just go dead quiet. That life isn’t always fair. That no one’s family is perfect. That you could lose everything in an instant. That miracles do happen, sometimes. That you can’t get everything you want, and you shouldn’t think you should. That age doesn’t matter. That you made a terrible mistake, and it’s your loss.
The story of us… we could have fooled everyone, that everything was perfect. But simple miscommunications, lead to fall outs, and I fell hard. It’s two a.m., feelin’ like I just lost a friend. It wasn’t easy for me and I couldn’t breathe. It was never easy, it’s still not easy. But life throws rocks at things that shine. And there’s so many walls up that you and I can’t break through. It was all just a twist of fate, when it all broke down. I’d tell you I missed you, but I didn’t believe you missed me. I’d lay my armour down, but I was afraid of giving too much and getting hurt again. Cause it was heartbreaking, gut-wrenching, painful. Cause the story of us is killing you, like its killing me.
The thing is, you get hurt but it wouldn’t hurt if it didn’t mean something to you. Therefore you fight for it. You get knocked down again and again; you get up again and again because you know it’s important to keep fighting. You taught me that trust is everything and things can change so quickly.
My friends and I have fought some battles this year. I tend to take on everyone’s problems; I care too much, till I get hurt too. But I’d do it all again, I’ll still do it. “The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain.”
I’m glad you didn’t give into that, because you are beautiful just the way you are. I’m glad you didn’t give into that, because your friend would not have wanted you to. I’m glad your mum is alright. I’m glad you’re so strong and mature for your age. I’m glad I changed your life, but you still need to do some growing up and you know it. I’m glad you’re always yourself. I’m glad you’re always there for me, oceans away.
This morning was bittersweet, no more 5:30am starts, but no more, funny, cute, sweet kids to go to work too. I’m going to miss your homework, silly comments, high fives and hugs.
There is both good and bad having best friends living oceans away from you. The worst is that you can’t give them a hug or when they are all together and you are alone, wishing you were nowhere else but there. And when you’re missing them so much it hurts, and it’s the only thing you want in the world. Just as one of these best friends told me, the feeling will pass, and it did, but it’s still always going to be there. The good thing is though, that you know they love you and that they feel the same way. That because you’re so far away, you try harder, you have to, otherwise it will all fall apart. So you try harder and it gets stronger and you know they will always be there, 25 000 km away.
In exactly 1 year, 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days I’ll be in America with one of my best friends. We drove past the international airport today, weirdest feeling ever. This time next year bags will be packed, and hot weather waved goodbye. I won’t get a wink of sleep. I’ll cry at both airports. I won’t want to come home. It will be amazing. It seems so far away but so close. I can’t wait to go to the wedding of one of the nicest and most genuine people I know. I can’t wait to see my two big sisters. Zero kilometres away.
Songs of the Year – The Story of Us – Taylor Swift, Breathe – Taylor Swift, More Time – Needtobreathe, A Little Bit Stronger – Sara Evans, One of Us – Glee Cast, Grenade – Bruno Mars, What Hurts The Most – Rascal Flatts, Not Afraid – Eminem, Replay – Iyaz, The Heart of Life – John Mayer, Belief – John Mayer, Split Screen Sadness – John Mayer, Need You Now – Lady Antebellum, Lost – Michael Bublé, Ordinary Girl – Miley Cyrus, For A Pessimist I’m Pretty Optimistic – Paramore, The Lining Is Silver – Relient K, Too Many Words – Sick Puppies, Long Live – Taylor Swift, Tied Together With A Smile – Taylor Swift, Lean On Me – Glee Cast, True Colours – Glee Cast, I Caught Myself – Paramore.
“Trust is like a mirror, if broken you can fix it but you’ll always see the cracks.”
“We may not have it all together, but together we have it all.”
“Some days the whole world seems upside down. And then somehow, and probably, when you least expect it, the world rights itself again.”
“Missing someone isn’t about how long it has been since you’ve seen them or the amount of time since you’ve talked. It’s about that very moment when you’re doing something and wishing they were right there with you.”
“Worrying does not take away tomorrow’s troubles; it takes away today’s peace.”
“Good friends are like stars, you don’t always see them but you know they’re always there.”
“Closeness has nothing to do with distance.”
“You know you really love someone, when you can’t hate them for breaking your heart.”
“God speaks in the silence of the heart… listening is the beginning of prayer…”
This blog is dedicated to Abbey, Alison, Amber, Annie, April, Bec, Britny, Brooke, Catie, Caylee, Holly C, Holly M, Jess, Kayla, Kristen, Megan, Nikki, Noelia, Phoebe, Sam, Sarah, Susie, and Sydney. I love you all.
29th October 2010
I think you should speak now.
This blog is dedicated to you.
It’s the 29th, I’m Australian, and I just got Speak Now today. We waited the longest, and it was worth it. The Prologue of the album booklet is my life at the moment, in so many ways. “Words can break someone into a million pieces, but they can also put them back together.” No words can also break someone into a million pieces. It may take some time to say the words that will put them back together. Something major that happened in my life the last couple of months, I haven’t really talked openly about in blogs, because it was too personal, I didn’t know how I felt or how that person felt. Life is confusing. “But if you know how you feel, and you so clearly know what you need to say, you’ll say it” So you write something to someone, that is the truth, the truth hurts, and lies protect you.
“Friendship doesn’t have a timeframe but it does have a timeline”
To my big sister, our friendship isn’t at the end of a time frame. It’s on a timeline, timelines go on forever, we are just at the point on the timeline, that will make us stronger by getting past the hurt, regret, armour, lies, fear, and let downs. “Long live all the mountains we moved”
Some messages to friends that will “Long Live”
Caylee, “bring on all the pretenders” because your climbing mountains much higher than them. I love you. Remember it always. And Happy 17th Birthday again haha. I hope it was everything you wished for.
April, your incredible, I hope you know that, being so far away, you’re always there, I don’t know how you do it. I’ll fight dragons with you any day. Your DM’s while you were away this week, meant so much, you probably don’t know that. I’m glad you didn’t freeze to death in New York ;).
Catie, my best friend for life, “long live the walls we crashed through” and sometimes smacked into haha :p. You’re ALWAYS here :) to listen to my not so big problems and silly jokes hehe. I love you.
Annie & Amber, “even though you want to, just try to never grow up”.
Sam, thank you for letting me cry on your shoulder last night <3.
Don’t you think I was too young to be messed with.
18th October 2010
So yesterday, Catie and I went and saw Paramore at the Riverstage, one word, EPIC.
Here’s how it went down.
Walked over the Goodwill Bridge from Southbank around 5pm; said hello to the ‘Independent Tree’ on the way haha :). Tried to work out how Taylor managed to pull off that photo, realised she is “Jesus with blonde hair” and she walked on water, or Bobby carried her into the river hahaha. Really we still don’t know so add that to the list of things to ask Taylor next time haha. Got to the Riverstage which is an outdoor venue, waited in line for about an hour. When we got there, there was like 2, 100 meter lines, which by the time the gates opened had kinda just merged into one line aka just a large mass of people haha. Who were all listening to the same brain washing message from security, “no flares, no chairs, no studded belts, don’t stand on bins, etc” etc etc etc I could recite it for you cause its permanently burned into my brain forever haha. Recorded the message for Annie so she could get the full experience even though she wasn’t there haha. Worked out we probably heard it about 30+ times. Don’t judge the line was BORING haha. Interesting things we saw in line (as interesting as a line can get haha), Vanessa Hudgens look alike, many groups of girls wearing the same thing, tiny black tops, and short as jean shorts, come on be original haha. Oh and I have never seen so many people wearing black t-shirts in my life hahaha. Now, you can tell where Catie and I’s priorities are haha much discussion was had about TAYLOR’s tour haha not Paramore :p.
BUT let’s talk about Paramore, AMAZING, AWESOME, and MINDBLOWINGLY GOOD. I was just about to type what songs were the best, then I looked at the set list and realised they were all freaking amazing. ‘Decode’ live improves its awesomeness so much, like wow. ‘That’s What You Get’ just plain rocked. Acoustic Set, pretty fucking amazing, Hayley’s voice is just amazing, pretty much perfect. Her and Josh covered, ‘You Ain’t Woman Enough’, with Hayley claiming her country-ness, “COUNTRY MUSIC CAPITAL OF THE WORLD, NASHVILLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”. My favourite song of the night was definitely ‘Misery Business’ hands down the craziest song ever to hear live. I had high hopes for this song, did not disappoint. Hayley Williams is one crazy performer; I don’t know how she has so much energy for such a small person. SHE. DID. NOT. STOP. Even before Paramore came on stage she was on stage performing she played the drums for ‘Jury and the Saints’ and rolled around on stage with the rest of Paramore during one of ‘Relient K’s songs haha. Paramore’s guitarists’ flipping over each other was awesome. All good concerts have confetti haha.
Ok so a few random things from the night haha. It was FREEZING, well for October haha; Catie and I are never going to survive the cold in America hahahaha. But omg its cold ok, why the fuck was this girl wearing practically nothing haha, I think she must have lost her clothes in the mosh lol. Which is totally possible, from where we were standing, the mosh was swaying crazily like everyone was joined together haha, pretty awesome from where we were standing, but we would have probably died in there haha. Ok Relient K are AMAZING, just another amazing product from Nashville :) and Nashville accents are so sexy haha. In love with the song ‘Sahara’. Also Jury and the Saints cover of ‘Dynamite’ was sooo awesome.
Woke up this morning still on the biggest adrenaline rush haha. Going to Paramore last night made me SO SO SO excited for Taylor’s tour, just OMFG. Cannot wait to see the Speak Now tour with 16 of the best friends ever. IT’S GOING TO BE INSANELY AWESOME. Things I cannot wait for, camping out, getting tickets, random adventures at the venue, getting lost, hanging out at “the gate” in Brisbane, going to Sydney, road tripping, being first in line. Just needs to happen soon.
1st October 2010
And That’s Real Love
It’s October and October means ‘Speak Now’. I know a lot of people are doing their own versions of Taylor’s new Bio, I’m going to do one instead of a blog this week, I don’t really care if you think I’m a copy cat or whatever haha, so here goes…
Hey, I’m Nicole. This is my last year as a teenager, and I hate that, cause that means growing up, which is something I’ve done a lot of this year. Soccer was half of my life. I have a healthy obsession with quotes; they are smarter than I am. I’m a Sagittarius. Last year I put our Christmas tree up on my birthday. I’m the only one who decorates our house. I love writing letters. Mail brightens even the darkest day. My home is among the Gum Trees. I can’t sing and I can’t dance, I have no special talent, that doesn’t bother me. The things I’m good at I’m only good at cause I practiced. I do however pick up physical skills like rollerblading and wakeboarding very fast, and they stick, just like riding a bike. My dog is human, probably because we treat him like a king; he’s my most important possession. I’m slightly OCD about being organised. I worry and stress too much, usually over things I can’t control. There is nothing like the perfect wave, everything else disappears for those few seconds. I spent 13 years at one school trying not to be awkward and shy. Dreams come true. Dream it, it will happen, I’ve got proof. Music is life, the words we cannot speak. Friendship is important, if you don’t think so I’m probably not friends with you. Friends teach you things, things you didn’t know about yourself. I have a fear of abandonment. You can never go wrong with a good pair of jeans. I’m not very creative, but I do make pretty good graphics, or so I’ve heard. I have an unhealthy obsession with soccer boots, which isn’t so girly, but i guess that falls into the ‘Girls love shoes’ category. I love that there is a song for every situation, and that new music is never ending, just like a never ending story. If you have ever spent any time reading my blog or talking to me, I love you.
That was a tad ADD haha and not as long as I’d like because I’m not that interesting haha. So heres the rest of my blog…
Bec had the most amazing dream hahaha, one day we will go to that lake, and there will be revenge haha. BecIloveyouandournotsocodishcodethatanyonecanreadandihopethosemoudlynutsdidntmakeyousick. Hahahaha.
Cayleeeeeeee I love you, you made me laugh, when I was about to cry. My day was completely turned around for the better by you yesterday :) Cannot thank you enough. And thank you for taking the time the other day to talk to me, when I really needed someone. Remember I’ll always do the same for you. And your project idea is really sweet, I love it :). People of Tumblr, Caylee and I like Bieber’s music, ok deal with it ;) hehe.
Finally got my iPhone, I’m a bit iphone-tarded. Catie, thank you for letting me ask you a million stupid questions last night haha :).
There is always that debate about whether it’s fair or not to meet Taylor multiple times when other people haven’t met her once. The truth is it is fair, if you’re given an opportunity you are going to take it. I’m lucky enough to have met Taylor once, it was all pure luck. I’d love another chance to meet Taylor but I would not be upset if I never got to again. My next opportunity to meet Taylor, I’m giving to my friends who haven’t met Taylor yet, because they deserve that opportunity just like everyone else. But yea don’t hate on people who have met Taylor multiple times, it’s just luck, you’ll get your turn. It’s all fair; no one is saying you can’t meet Taylor. The other day I got an email asking if I wanted to meet Taylor. This email did upset me, but not cause I can’t meet Taylor but because Australian’s can’t enter the contest. There is no equal opportunity and that’s what meeting Taylor is really about. Everyone having the same chance.
And that’s real love. When there is a million reasons to give up on someone, but you don’t.
24th September 2010
Shrimp On The Barbie
Thursday was a pretty shit day, I felt like deleting my Twitter, and yelling at a bunch of people to shut up. An amazing friend of mine who I had barely talked to all day, somehow knew exactly that it was killing me, and that I did have a right to be upset. She wrote in her blog exactly what I wished for too. She sent me a message trying to help. Caylee your offer really did mean so much to me, that someone was thinking about me and made me feel included. I’ll be there in spirit, but one day I won’t have to be. I love you. Shrip on the Babie.
I used to miss school, a lot. I don’t anymore. I missed seeing school friends. I don’t anymore. My school friends were just “school friends”, we went to school, we had classes, and we talked at lunch time and after school, usually about school stuff and assignments. They were never really real friendships. Everyone was too busy stressing about assignments, and being busy with sport all weekend to have any time to build real friendships. You finish school, all of that changes, at least for me it did. I’ve never had a best friend until this year, and I’m lucky enough to have more than one. One of these best friends I never get to see. It’s a funny world when your “friends” at school you’d see every day but they don’t care, you don’t trust them, there’s nothing really. Then there are your friends you don’t see often, yet you trust them with your life, keep secrets, they care so much. Life is a little unfair that way, but worth it.
I got the most amazing letter and package from my American bffl this week. Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups are so damn delicious, that they are gone haha, even in their melted and gross state :p. Long letters are the best . April my reply letter is at 6 pages at the moment haha. Banana Starburst are gross haha. Why do they make banana flavoured lollies? I’ve never understood that haha. Your mom seriously needs to adopt me, that Skype call last weekend was the funniest thing in a long time haha , made my day <3.
Saw ‘Charlie St Cloud’ with my bffl on Friday . God I love Zac Efron so fricken much. He totally made that movie haha. Catie is awesome ;) <3.
Been doing a lot of planning for our America Trip the last two days. The places we are going are, LA, Seattle, NY, Nashville, Orlando, and Jacksonville. Having a heap of trouble figuring out where or how was can afford to stay in NY or anywhere near NY. If you have any suggestions leave them in my Ask box please, it would be greatly appreciated . Also any places or things we should see in the above cities; leave them in my Ask box.
Bec yesterday was hilarious coming up with PPP ideas haha . We may have a winner ;) Love you <3.
Its school holidays for 2 weeks here at the moment, which means I’m working Vacation Care. I love going to work and playing foosball, piggy in the middle, footy, soccer, and watching kid’s movies haha . Seriously, best job, most of the time.
FINALLY we have the Speak Now Tracklist! Seriously can’t wait! Little disappointed that ‘Castles Crumbling’ isn’t on the album, but the rest looks AMAZING. Songs I’m particularly looking forward too are ‘Mean’, ‘The Story of Us’, ‘Never Grow Up’, ‘Better Than Revenge’, ‘Innocent’ and ‘Haunted’. I just can’t fucking wait hahaha.
One of my friends wrote a blog last weekend, a blog that I really relate to, and a blog that is so true. I too am tired of; people getting what I want (not necessarily material things), feeling alone, having too many things to take care of, only hearing bad news about people I love, being stressed and worried, missing my friends, being upset, crying because I’m upset, and not being happy.
Learning to trust some again is so hard. You know you’ve put up a wall and you’re not letting them back in. I don’t know how to change that and I wish I did.
17th September 2010
Waiting Is The Hardest Part
So last weekend, my mum said to me, “at this rate you could have enough money to go to America at the end of this year” which I realised I could possibly have the money, which is so cool, but I’m still going next year haha so don’t get too excited everyone :p. Next year I really want to go to CMA Fest so after my mum said that about my money, I mention that I would have enough money to go to CMA Fest. Her answer, “I don’t think so, let’s just focus on December”. So, all American’s I’m not coming to CMA Fest next year AGAIN.
One of the many things I love about Taylor’s music is the fact that you can relate to her songs so easily even if it’s not the meaning she intended for the song. ‘Innocent’ is one of these songs. Yes, it’s about Kanye. But listening to it on the VMA’s for the first time not once did I relate it to Kanye. It has so many meanings to different people, such an incredible song. For me, it means growing up too fast, having so much pressure on your shoulders you feel like you’re drowning, that some people shouldn’t have so much to deal with at such a young age, and making mistakes. Definitely one of my favourite Taylor songs and I cannot wait for the studio version on ‘Speak Now’.
On Friday I went bowling for the first time in ages with Catie, so much fun :). I think we need to go a bit more though, cause Catie needs practice hahaha. Final score, Nicole 104, Catie 62, hahahaha next time Catie, after you have warmed up, right? haha. April I hope you made some money on me winning haha :p.
One of my funniest friends turned 19 this week, Happy Birthday Sydney :) Love you girl. Hope you had an amazing day because you deserve it. I love that we met through PPP and have become good friends lately. We share the most ridiculous sense of humour on some things hahaha. Thank you for always making sure things are ok, it means a lot :) <3.
My glow stick loving, corn shucking, American friend is engaged! :) Congratulations Sarah; seriously made my week, I’m so happy for you :). I’m so excited haha and I really want to come to your wedding. I love how all of PPP is like going organising crazy haha, I think we all have a little bit of that in us hehe. It will be amazing. I hope I’m there. P.S. January 2012 is a good time for a wedding haha :p.
All of PPP have been busy planning Sarah’s wedding, and by planning I mean, organising celebrity dates for each other hahaha. Selena Gomez has been uninvited because of the drama it would cause if Taylor Lautner was there haha. So now Bec can go with Austin Swift haha, and I get Taylor Lautner. I’m bringing Daniel Conn over for April. We are going to set up Taylor with Grant. Name drop any celebrity, they are going to be there hahahaha. I love PPP :) <3.
Catie and I found the coolest book on Friday, Aussie Slang. I wish I could send this book to every American haha because you guys would get a kick out of it. But I’m going to buy it sometime hopefully. So Merries you will get an Aussie Word of the Day. Kristen I think you will love this :).
So my mum works in the Nursing School at a University, and they got these new model babies haha, wow that sounded weird haha. Any who my mum brought one home to show my brother and I for god knows what reason haha, but omg it is so freaky and LIFE LIKE haha, it even has a heartbeat. But yea creeps me out haha. Mum totally scared the crap out of dad when he thought she brought home a baby hahahahaha.
This is a little late but, September 11. I still remember that day 9 years ago, I was 10 years old. Waking up to utter panic on the news and knowing that something in the world had gone wrong and changed forever.
Just want to say to one of my friends, they will know who they are when they read this. You are working so hard, trying to do everything. Just remember you need time for yourself.
I miss one of my best friends. And I miss the Quads.
If you haven’t seen the movie ‘Marley & Me’ or read the book, do it, you won’t regret it. And if you don’t have a dog, get one haha. The best birthday present I have ever gotten. A dog always knows when something is wrong, and will love you no matter what. If you don’t have a dog, you’re missing out.
“A dog has no use for fancy cars, big homes, or designer clothes. A water log stick will do just fine. A dog doesn’t care if you’re rich or poor, clever or dull, smart or dumb. Give him your heart and he’ll give you his. How many people can you say that about? How many people can make you feel rare and pure and special? How many people can make you feel extraordinary?”
This blog really isn’t anything like what my week was really like.
10th September 2010
Such Is Life
This week I started writing a list of all the Aussie foods the American’s have to try when they come here. So far on the list, Vegemite, Sausage Rolls, Spinach and Cheese Rolls, Meat Pie, Weet Bix, Lamingtons, Damper, ANZAC Biscuits, Kebabs, Hungry Jacks, Red Rooster, Lamb Chops, Starburst Babies and Snakes, Zappos, Magnum Ice-creams, Maxibons, Smarties, Freddo Frogs, Kinda Surprise, Caramelo Koalas. Any Aussies that read my blog feel free to message me any other foods you can think of.
Americans have Starburst Chews, but they don’t have any of the others, such as Babies. When I said this to Alison she’s like, Australians eat babies, that’s so sad haha, it is pretty funny when you think about it haha. So yes, we eat babies.
Sam – Happy 21st Birthday, you’re getting old :p jk. I just want to say, thank you so much for EVERYTHING the last few weeks. I know you will always listen, even when sometimes it’s stupid. Especially when it feels like there is no one else. I look up to you so much. Love you, thank you <3.
When I finished high school my best friend moved to Melbourne for uni. Since then we have probably talked all of 10 times in 3 years. This week she has been online a fair bit, but it’s just like how can you even possibly make up that amount of time. It’s hard enough catching up a few weeks. Guess it’s just another person who has walked out of my life, for no other reason but crappy timing or moving away.
I guess that’s my biggest fear at the moment, that you just don’t care, and someone else will walk away. And it can’t be stopped.
Annie you’re amazing. I don’t know how you do it, you’re so brave. I would be so scared. And I stand by what I said the other day. It needs to happen soon. Because you know I’ll worry til it does.
When someone asks you to stop. Don’t you? I wish you would give me some respect and leave me alone, like I asked you.
Soccer is finally over for this season. Had our last game last weekend, 6 of our own players showed up, you can guess how that went, and how pissed off I was.
Ok so some of my year 12 class mates are finishing up at uni, which is totally weird because I haven’t even started haha. I feel so behind, but I guess everyone has their own pace, and I was one of the youngest people in my grade.
So IM GOING TO SEE PARAMORE. Yes its caps worthy haha, so excited. Going to be so good and I’m really looking forward to it being at the Riverstage, I think it’s a pretty cool venue for a concert. CAN NOT WAIT. :)
People make mistakes so they can learn. You do the best you can at the time because you don’t know any other way; you make a mistake, so next time you know the right way. The older you get the bigger the mistakes and the more important the lesson.
A friend asked me this question this week, how can you even stand living so far away from your best friend? You can’t stand it but you have to, you have no other choice. It is one of the hardest things, and you just learn to deal with it. Some days though you just don’t deal with it so well, and wish you lived closer.
As much as I love Skype to talk to the Americans, sometimes you just don’t want to talk because that is all there is. Probably doesn’t even make sense, but I think you get it Catie.
“Depression is not a sign of weakness, it is just a sign that we have been strong for too long.”
Catie deconstructing and giving commentary on photos on Facebook is one of the most hilarious things hahahahaha, love you :) <3.
QOTD: “So I have a compulsion that I can never stop, when it gets to the fight part of ‘Mine’…I head bang” – Catie
My room smells like Sour Patch Watermelons.
3rd September 2010
I always say this at the start of writing my blog; this is going to be boring and uneventful so you probably won’t even read it haha. Maybe I should just write the first line when I’m finished haha.
So this week I got the most AMAZING American package ever! Love you Britny!
The best part about this package by far was the American rations I was sent haha. Seriously some of the best “candy” ever! ‘Sour Patch Watermelons’ and ‘Swedish Fish’ (weirdest name ever) taste DELICIOUS. I now know what it’s like to be the Americans with their ‘Tim Tams’, trying not to eat all of it at once is so hard haha.
It’s my dog’s 10th birthday and just because I can, and because I’m lame, I wrote a rap about my dog to the tune of ‘Thug Story’. You can all laugh at me now haha. April I am NOT rapping this for you haha but Annie will hahaha.
“Hey, Hey P-Dizzle
I’m like 1 foot 0
Black and white hair to the door
You shorties never thought I dreamed about rapping hardcore
No I ain’t got a bone
No I never really been in a dog park
Still live with my owners but I’m still a thug
I’m so gangster you can find me chasing cats at night
You out walking but I just had a nap
P-Dizzle and T-Pain rapping on the same track
It’s a thug story; tell me can you handle that?
I had a dream last night
That I caught that bush turkey
Diamonds on my collar
And Diamonds on my jacket
Cause I’m a dog turned rapper
Shorty I’m a make ya
Straight to the top, yo
You can call me P-Dizzle
Now I’m a rap star
You don’t want to fight me
Cause I’ll lick your face off.”
I’ve decided to do American Words of the Week, well if I have any, which I do this week haha. Australian’s don’t use any of these terms, you Americans are funny haha :p.
‘Scrimmage’ aka a practice or training match or a friendly. I don’t know why you need such a fancy word haha.
‘Pep Rally’ what is even the point of this haha. Heres what Urban Dictionary has to say, “1. A gathering of students before a game. 2. An excuse to miss an hour of school. 3. A way to force kids to have school spirit.” Seriously Hahahaha.
And ‘Homecoming’, we do not have that here haha. Really have no idea how this is different from ‘Prom’ which we don’t have either haha, so if someone could explain the difference, that would be great haha.
This is quite possibly the worst blog I have written haha. Some really random and pointless things that have happened this week, I drove over a pillow on the highway; I don’t know why anyone would be sleeping out there haha jk :p. I saw a hot air balloon haha, it was red, Catie you would like it haha.
So the CMA Fest Country’s Night to Rock Special / Taco Bell was on this week. Totally thought I was over it, turns out I wasn’t. So fun. Seeing certain people, made me cry ughhh…
THIS Facebook group - “I like your accent!” “What accent?” That accent!” “I have an accent?” My life haha.
Today is the last game of the season for soccer, and for the first time in my life I can’t wait for it to be over. Usually I hate the last game because it means I don’t get to play again for 5 months. At the start of this season, our coach walked out on us, we were told by our club we weren’t good enough to play Division 1. I argued against that and lost; we were dropped down to Div 2 and promised we would be much better in that Division. Guess what we are going to come 8th out of 10 teams, congratulations club, you made a crappy decision and now a lot of players are probably going to leave the club. You thought dropping us down would give the “younger” players in our team a better opportunity to play well and thus they would want to stay at the club for the next few years. Your plan failed majorly. I love making sacrifices for nothing, then getting treated like crap, really makes you feel good. I have no idea what I’m going to do next year, and I wish people would stop asking me that.
I hate how when you think someone is your friend then things change and you realise you are the one holding your friendship together, so you stop and it’s just as you suspected. You weren’t great friends after all.
This is a fail of a blog so the rest of it can be in quotes haha enjoy.
“There are friends whom you see every day talk to and laugh with, yet the friendship just ends there. But there are those whom you rarely see, but the friendship lives on forever.”
“It’s hard to wait around for something you know might never happen; but it’s even harder to give up when you know it’s everything you want.”
“A loyal friend laughs at your jokes when they’re not so good, and sympathizes with your problems when they’re not so bad.”
“Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn’t let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can’t outrun it and life always makes more.”
12th June 2010
Losing friends is the worst thing; I hope you feel as bad as I do. And you’re right, it won’t be the same. But nobody is perfect. And I don’t want you to hurt me again, so I don’t think we can be friends…
Puzzle Piece Project ended last weekend, well actually I guess like right now :(
Catie and I started planning our US of Awesome trip this week :)
Plan so far is to leave for LA on the 11th of December 2011 for 6 weeks of awesomeness in the States.
Visiting LA, Seattle, NY, Nashville, Orlando, and Miami
Did a heap of researching of places to go etc. Was fun, until I got to Nashville.
Things I’m really looking forward to are Central Park, Ice Skating in NY, Music Row, and WWOHP.
Now the hardcore saving begins! Haha
Which brings me to work haha, started part time this week sooo good :) 5:30am starts aren’t too bad, except when I said good night to dad as he was leaving for work lol. Pick up an extra 12 hours of work next week :) $$$
Nearly knocked out our keeper at soccer training this week lol.
Jury Duty is finished!!! Yay
Catie provided me with some entertaining text messages while waiting to go into court.
“They should really supply entertainment or something, like a clown that makes balloon animals.”
“Don’t you think it would be cool to walk into the court room with a balloon sword? Scare those crims into saying guilty!”
Apparently there is some new range of Australian themed underwear coming out hahaha, you Merries should get some :P lol jk
It’s officially winter and I’m already sick of it. Merries it is REALLY COLD! Lindsay and Kristen, I’m telling you it is really freezing for us warm blooded Aussies haha.
So the Aussies Skyped the Merries for the first time this week. Honestly half the time we cannot understand what you guys are saying lol. But your accents are amazing. Lindsay and Kristen you two sound exactly the same lol. It’s pretty much really confusing as to who is talking lol. Noelia I seriously thought it was April talking, when it was you hahaha, sorry. So embarrassing. I must be Skype-tarded lol.
VEGEMITE IS DELICIOUS!
Merries you have to read the instructions properly don’t just lick it off your finger. Spread it on some bread peeps!! Your gagging and hurling noises over Skype were very entertaining though haha please put the video of it up.
Your ukulele playing and PPP song was very impressive! Lol
Figured out my backup for my uni application. Hopefully I get into the Bachelor of Fine Arts (Interactive and Visual Design) if not I want to do the Bachelor of Creative Industries, they are pretty much the same anyways :).
Sometimes you have to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve.
100 Words of the truth
I’ll wish you luck when you don’t need it. Hug you when you’re sad. Tell you it’s going to be okay when you’re upset. Tell you the truth even if it’s hard. I won’t lie to you. Congratulate you when you’re a champion. Keep you company when you’re alone. Never leave you behind. Miss you no matter how long it’s been or how far away. Laugh at your jokes when they’re not so good. Sympathize with your problems when they’re not so bad. I’ll always listen to you. Help you no matter what. Treat you with respect.
